I just recently started looking through old journals and found this lil’ entry from August 18, 2007.
“This summer when I was at camp, we went up to Inspiration Point to watch the moonrise (one of my favorite things to do!). I did my research and thought the moon was going to raise at a specific time (that I found from the US Navy Observatory website) but the moon ended up rising a lot later then I had expected (around 30-40 minutes later). Instead of enjoy the extra time with the people I was with. I was tempted to get frustrated that the moon was not rising when I believed it should have. I could feel myself getting impatient and I didn’t like that this feeling of urgency/impatience was interrupting me enjoying this beautiful moment. I wanted to pray that the moon would come quicker mostly because I was wrong on the timing but also I did not want to disappoint the people that I was with and feeling like I was making them wait longer than we had expected. I was the “leader” and my timing was wrong. In the end, the moon did rise and it was glorious. All the waiting, being patient, letting go, being present with the people that I was with and letting go of something I had no control over made the moon rising so much more beautiful.
I feel like at this stage…I know something amazing is going to happen…like the moon rising, I can see the moon beams coming over the mountains. I don’t see the full moon itself, but a glimpse of the light. The time has not come for the moon to be fully exposed so I can choose to focus that it’s not rising quick enough or enjoy the process of watching the moonlight expose part of the mountain, the trees, the rocks. The wait, the process, will make the moon rise even more glorious than what I am seeing now or hope for”.
It was fun to look at old journal entries and have myself (from 7 years ago) encourage me. It’s so easy right now to look at my current circumstances (relationships, work, dreams, etc) and want changes to happen quickly. We live in the culture of hurry up and wait. We love microwaves, drive-thru’s, instant information (a.k.a. Google). We are so used to wanting to know something or wanting to make something happen that we make just make it happen and forgot to stop…wait…and let God make it beautiful. When we try to hurry, we are in want to be in control and try to protect ourselves. Sometimes, the Lord wants us to just sit back, and watch how He unveils the story. How He will bring glimpses of light to situations to let you know He is moving. Sometimes the light seems very dim and you need to look a bit harder but it’s there, He is bringing to light, your world.
Right now you may be waiting on the Lord to answer, to speak, to move…to do something!! But remember He is (even if you want to yell..move/show up faster please! ) 🙂 He may not be moving in our timing (like how I was thinking I knew when the moon should rise) but it’s true, His timing is perfect. Sometimes we don’t realize how perfect it is till the moon actually rises in all it’s glory.
The moon is rising and you can’t see it yet but it is. The cool part, is the Lord makes it rise, and we get to watch it all unfold and we really don’t have to do a thing but simply be.